This has not been a banner holiday year for me. I am trying to wear the smile and trying to feel the holiday spirit, but it is eluding me thus far. There is just so much this year: continued estrangement from my son, family issues, health issues, the first anniversary of the loss of our … More This Christmas….
I need some emotional support this morning, my friends. I am in a dark place. It has come on rather suddenly, as in the last few days. I figure the holidays have something to do with it but I feel it worse right now than in many holiday seasons past, since all the family drama. … More On The Way Down…
I am sad lately, sad at where this world is heading and with this new “normal” we are seeing in basic humanity – murder based on race and revenge, acceptance of discriminatory views in our politicians, the intentional harm perpetrated on friends and family for selfish gain. What is happening? Why are we okay with … More The New Normal?
“A Sunday Afternoon on the Island of La Grande Jatte” – A painting by George Seurat. I have always been struck by the scene in “Ferris Bueller’s Day Off” when they are in the museum and Cameron stares at this painting as the camera zooms in on his face. You can see the longing in … More “Thoughts Through Art” Series
This is the second in my series of finding meaning through art, words and images, things for all of us to contemplate and consider. This image struck me immediately and brought a tear to my eyes. I can see it meaning different things to different people but for me, it represents years of my own … More ‘Thoughts Through Art’ Series
Oh, where do I even start? The weekend was filled with so many different emotions. This may be a long post but please stay with me because I think it is an important one. I almost titled this “Alcohol & Honesty” but the truth is, that is only semi-true, for although alcohol definitely brings out … More Crash & Burn?
This is not coming from a depressed or suicidal place, I just find myself questioning life after the loss of our precious dog. It’s a thought I have had before but it is more pronounced after our recent loss. Currently in my life, even though I have been healing and doing better after all the … More Questioning Life
Yesterday, we lost our little dog. In the early morning dark hours in bed, our beloved little boy went into a massive sneezing fit. When we turned on the light, there was blood sprayed everywhere. Our hearts sunk and we knew it was time – we couldn’t let him suffer or live in pain. I let … More Grief Realized
Now that we have decided to hold off on having our little doggie, Scottie, put to sleep, I am finding that I am struggling with extended grief, anticipatory grief. When the date was set for yesterday and we spent the weekend with him, doing special things for him, it was some of the worst pain of … More Anticipatory Grief
(Just an FYI – our little boy is still with us as of this post). After all the family drama and letting go and finally moving freely forward, this holiday season was going to be the first in a long time that I looked forward to, enjoyed, felt peace with – but that was not … More A Traumatic Thanksgiving