This Christmas….

This has not been a banner holiday year for me. I am trying to wear the smile and trying to feel the holiday spirit, but it is eluding me thus far. There is just so much this year: continued estrangement from my son, family issues, health issues, the first anniversary of the loss of our … More This Christmas….

On The Way Down…

I need some emotional support this morning, my friends. I am in a dark place. It has come on rather suddenly, as in the last few days.  I figure the holidays have something to do with it but I feel it worse right now than in many holiday seasons past, since all the family drama. … More On The Way Down…

The New Normal?

I am sad lately, sad at where this world is heading and with this new “normal” we are seeing in basic humanity – murder based on race and revenge, acceptance of  discriminatory views in our politicians, the intentional harm perpetrated on friends and family for selfish gain. What is happening?  Why are we okay with … More The New Normal?

Crash & Burn?

  Oh, where do I even start? The weekend was filled with so many different emotions. This may be a long post but please stay with me because I think it is an important one. I almost titled this “Alcohol & Honesty” but the truth is, that is only semi-true, for although alcohol definitely brings out … More Crash & Burn?

Questioning Life

This is not coming from a depressed or suicidal place, I just find myself questioning life after the loss of our precious dog. It’s a thought I have had before but it is more pronounced after our recent loss. Currently in my life, even though I have been healing and doing better after all the … More Questioning Life

Grief Realized

Yesterday, we lost our little dog. In the early morning dark hours in bed, our beloved little boy went into a massive sneezing fit. When we turned on the light, there was blood sprayed everywhere.  Our hearts sunk and we knew it was time – we couldn’t let him suffer or live in pain. I let … More Grief Realized

Anticipatory Grief

Now that we have decided to hold off on having our little doggie, Scottie, put to sleep, I am finding that I am struggling with extended grief, anticipatory grief. When the date was set for yesterday and we spent the weekend with him, doing special things for him, it was some of the worst pain of … More Anticipatory Grief