Today is Veterans Day and I am finding that it has unfortunately brought out some latent anger in me. My estranged son is in the Navy and this day always brings out bad emotions. I was listening to the radio this morning and the DJ’s were talking about Veterans Day and how we should be thankful for those … More Latent Anger
There is something that has been on my mind for years now and it just came up again yesterday. Here it is – why is it so hard for people to believe the truth, yet they will accept lies so willingly? Allow me to explain. Years ago, before all the family drama and estrangements, my … More Truth & Lies
I’m sorry that I have been away for so long. Sometimes it seems like I have so much to say yet can’t put it into words anymore. Let me catch y’all up on how things are. I started a new job – and for the first time in about 7 years, it’s a good one! … More Catching Up
I am sad lately, sad at where this world is heading and with this new “normal” we are seeing in basic humanity – murder based on race and revenge, acceptance of discriminatory views in our politicians, the intentional harm perpetrated on friends and family for selfish gain. What is happening? Why are we okay with … More The New Normal?
Be careful when you keep pushing a loved one away – you never know when they might stop caring that you stopped caring! Anyone who has followed my blog knows of the estrangement between me and my 25-year-old son. It’s a long story that I won’t go into here but it started when he was … More Be Careful Pushing A Loved One Away
I almost titled this “Falling Inside The Black” but I wasn’t sure how many would know what I meant by it. Actually, “void” isn’t even the correct word right now as I am drowning in everything BUT the void! “Falling in the black Slipping through the cracks Falling to the depths can I ever go … More Drowning In The Void
It has been a year since I started this blog. I started it in hopes of dealing with my anxieties and emotions in relation to family estrangement and my son’s then upcoming wedding, in hopes of telling my story and helping others, and having others help me. It seems like a lifetime ago and yet … More My Son’s Wedding – A Postscript
People. Family. Relationships. Where do they go wrong? It’s strange to me how little memories can seep in and bring on existential questions. I was at dinner a little while back, my birthday dinner actually, and I was enjoying a nice glass of red wine, a Chateau St. Michelle Indian Wells Merlot. I offered my … More Where Did It All Go Wrong?
I was awake in the middle of the night recently, unable to sleep, which is of course when my mind starts running full bore. For some reason, my mind when back to something I did in high school, something that has stayed with me ever since in certain ways. I was a senior in high … More Looking Back – A Runaway
Well, not really a lighter note, but a general life moment. I have started enjoying coffee in my backyard during the morning hours lately. I so love sitting and watching all the different birds that play in our yard, at the bird feeders and birdbath. In fact, I absolutely love our new back yard in … More On A Lighter Note…