If you have read my last couple posts, you know the holidays are and were a very difficult time for me. Today however, I feel such a weight has been lifted. All the stress and sadness have left my body and my mind and I am somehow left feeling a bit refreshed and renewed. It is … More The Weight Of It All
This has not been a banner holiday year for me. I am trying to wear the smile and trying to feel the holiday spirit, but it is eluding me thus far. There is just so much this year: continued estrangement from my son, family issues, health issues, the first anniversary of the loss of our … More This Christmas….
I need some emotional support this morning, my friends. I am in a dark place. It has come on rather suddenly, as in the last few days. I figure the holidays have something to do with it but I feel it worse right now than in many holiday seasons past, since all the family drama. … More On The Way Down…
Today is Veterans Day and I am finding that it has unfortunately brought out some latent anger in me. My estranged son is in the Navy and this day always brings out bad emotions. I was listening to the radio this morning and the DJ’s were talking about Veterans Day and how we should be thankful for those … More Latent Anger
There is something that has been on my mind for years now and it just came up again yesterday. Here it is – why is it so hard for people to believe the truth, yet they will accept lies so willingly? Allow me to explain. Years ago, before all the family drama and estrangements, my … More Truth & Lies
I’m sorry that I have been away for so long. Sometimes it seems like I have so much to say yet can’t put it into words anymore. Let me catch y’all up on how things are. I started a new job – and for the first time in about 7 years, it’s a good one! … More Catching Up
I am sad lately, sad at where this world is heading and with this new “normal” we are seeing in basic humanity – murder based on race and revenge, acceptance of discriminatory views in our politicians, the intentional harm perpetrated on friends and family for selfish gain. What is happening? Why are we okay with … More The New Normal?
Be careful when you keep pushing a loved one away – you never know when they might stop caring that you stopped caring! Anyone who has followed my blog knows of the estrangement between me and my 25-year-old son. It’s a long story that I won’t go into here but it started when he was … More Be Careful Pushing A Loved One Away
I almost titled this “Falling Inside The Black” but I wasn’t sure how many would know what I meant by it. Actually, “void” isn’t even the correct word right now as I am drowning in everything BUT the void! “Falling in the black Slipping through the cracks Falling to the depths can I ever go … More Drowning In The Void
It has been a year since I started this blog. I started it in hopes of dealing with my anxieties and emotions in relation to family estrangement and my son’s then upcoming wedding, in hopes of telling my story and helping others, and having others help me. It seems like a lifetime ago and yet … More My Son’s Wedding – A Postscript