Yes, it is that time of year again – time to make empty and unrealistic New Year’s resolutions. I don’t mean that to sound pessimistic but realistic. It’s no surprise that most people do not follow through with their resolutions. I know that I, myself, usually break them within days or weeks. Am I wrong?
I have been contemplating this the last couple days. What really is a resolution? I think it is hope, hope that something will be different, hope that this year will be better, hope that we can somehow magically change all the bad and replace it with good. We all have the power within us to make change but we also sometimes have a difficult time finding that power, grasping that power, harnessing that power.
Yes, I can make the same empty promises to myself that I make every year: lose weight, eat healthier, think more positively, stop letting fear control my decisions, etc. But if I haven’t succeed yet in my life with these things, I most likely won’t, not as long as I keep doing things the same old way. Not as long as I keep thinking that it will all happen someday. I think I try to live in the future too much, all that hope wound up into a tight ball that nothing can penetrate. Am I not just setting myself up for failure yet again?
So, here is my New Year’s resolution, and I have only one: to be more in the present! I want to stop looking so far forward and deal with the now, feel the now, be aware of what I am feeling and how I am reacting to it. I need to take small steps and if I wonder off, bring myself back and not beat myself up for it. Instead of trying to plan out and work on the rest of my life, I want to be where I am now and do what I can to make it better. Time is not running out; it’s just starting. It’s time to start loving myself from the inside. Who’s with me?