A Step Forward

Sometimes it’s the little things that move us forward. Something amazing happened the other day. Well, perhaps amazing isn’t the correct word, perhaps it was just more ‘unexpected but welcome’. I was born and raised in Northern California. As most of you know, last week that area was devastated by massive fire storms, my hometown area, three counties, … More A Step Forward

When Time Heals

2009 – the year the defining family event occurred. It’s been 8 years. Eight years since life as I knew it changed forever, 8 years I lived without family, 8 years of pain, and suffering, and confusion, and unanswered questions. But it was also 8 years of change, 8 years of healing and growing, 8 … More When Time Heals

Facing Demons

Tomorrow I get on a long flight back to my home state to visit a couple members of my family for a few days. If you had asked me even just a year ago if I would ever do this, I would have said you were insane. I guess time brings change, and now we … More Facing Demons

Asking Myself Why…

I have been struggling with something lately.  Well, struggling is not quite the right word. Perhaps I mean that I have been wondering about something lately, frustrated even. My brother – the man who molested me when I was so young – why do I keep wanting his approval? Why do I keep trying to … More Asking Myself Why…

Finding Brave

“The bravest thing I ever did was run.” These lyrics to a song by Little Big Town have really struck my heart. I have never felt in my whole life that running away was ever the right thing to do… until I had to do it. But I never thought of it as brave – necessary maybe, … More Finding Brave

A Decision Made

This saying really touched me, although I don’t think it’s really about winning. Family is such a precarious thing. What’s the saying – family is family?  This is true but it doesn’t exist in a capsule free and separate from trauma, selfishness, or boundaries being inexplicably and cruelly crossed. I believe, somehow after everything, that … More A Decision Made